I'm a middle age old man, it's about time. I wanted to do it at 19-20, but then I got tangled with stuff like getting crippled, cancer, depression, PTSD, heart stroke and just few months ago cholera. It took me 20 years but I finally accepted I'm not fit to get a job, and the State agreed. I'm probably going to live in poverty or with just the bare minimum, still better than staying here, literally living as in jail.